ROAR!

crzymnky456 @ 2006-05-19T14:52:00

2006-05-19T19:03:47Z

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OOOOOOMMMMMGGGGGG things have been going S0O0O0O0O0O0O0O0O excellent lately OH MAN! j;faeirtuqernfghioaudhi;adnf;'hja;ghj ahhhh im so happy that everything is going good...i thought that everything was going to turn to shit and i would be stressed like none other because of SOL's and finals and shit like that but IM NOT...im doing the BEST ive ever done this year in English, I have a B for interims =) im s0o0o0o freakin excited about that!!!!!!!! I just have to maintain that B and possibly raise it to a high B+ or A? yes, that is my goal for the end of the year...besides pass advancing all of my SOL's and finals and shit like that....

s0o0o0o0o that new diet im on? I LOVE IT! I have my own personal trainer, Jennifer, she's s0o0o0o nice, and I feel like I can just be like "yeah, i couldn't resist, I had a poptart today" or something like that but she wont get mad, she's juss like "be honest and everything will be good, but just try not to cheat" and ive been doing EXCELLENT! ive already lost 4 pounds and im 4 more pounds away from reaching my 20% weight loss goal =) im so excited that this year is turning out to be s0o0o0o0 exciting!!!

I'm going over to Kristy's house tonight FINALLY after 2489-567204896289057890276 years of not going over there! im going over after I work out with Jennifer =)

today has been a really good day...my dad came back from a business trip and im actually talking to him =) I guess thats making some progress...i just really wanna be driving again and I want to get a job at that soccer plus store down the street from me on Rolling Road and maybe a few jobs babysitting =) gosh everything is going so good right now *knock on wood*

So today is friday! yay! I had 3 tests today, all which I think I did pretty good on...maybe the lowest grade a C on all of them? I'm not sure...but yeah...I feel pretty good about them =) we're learning new music in chorus for our spring concert...I'm really excited, our theme is "Bruins on Broadway" you should come and see it! I wanna try out for some solos. I'm not sure if we're gonna have any though, but hopefully we will! =) jfqiopwerhtqjebgh;auidfhyqt;h im just so overwhelmed and 934576-29457628904576928htg;lkwftqerugnqero'-168945uinhykqenb BLAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

okie dokie i dont really know what else to say s0o0o bbye!

crzymnky456 @ 2006-05-09T20:44:00

2006-05-10T00:55:20Z

today was a MUUUCCCHHHH better day than this past month...it started out really bad but mornings aren't important...the only important thing in the morning is breakfast...and sharing sexual experiences with your spanish partner...hahaha that was funny =).

s0o0o0o Kristy made me feel better...we made fun of people in the hallways in the morning as they walked by and then we made more fun of people during lunch. 'Twas really funny...hahahahahaha

"You have some nice spectacles. Can I see your...testicles?" hahahahahahahahahaha....ok so yeah...

I'm starting this 15 month diet plan with my sister. We just started and I'm really looking forward to it, actually. Our personal trainer seems super-dee-duper nice, her name is Jennifer. She showed us a picture of how she looked before she went on this diet...OMG she was huge. But she's so skinny now and I can't wait to lose all the weight I want and then eat healthy forever and yea...I seriously think that by losing all this weight that I'm planning on losing will increase my self-esteem FORSHIZZLE MY NIZZLEEEEEEE......im already excited about what I'm gonna look like when I go back to school. Hopefully I will be somewhere close to the size I want to be. ae8o[rtyuaqnb;oqerutjqnhb19478690-u2y this is simply outrageous.

I'm kinda stressing about my English and Chemistry finals...We have an essay to write in English on the Once and Future King and I'm not that great at writing essays. ummmmmmm and for Chemistry, I can try to go on blackboard and do the extra credit practice SOL quizzes...that will probably be the best thing for me...but other than that, I'm just scared as shit for the final exam. asiortuadfh 90]adf89yg7145gbu1g8p6cv9p81hr wghatever......................sdgjq90[]e8 5yughmvb

s0o0o0o0o0o0o yeah, im not really sure what else to type in here...I'm not really sure what I'm doing this summer either. I wanna go somewhere, I think in August I'm going to Seattle to visit my Aunt and Uncle and stay with them for a week. That should be a lot of fun. I'm the last one out of my family to visit them by myself. My brother went, my sister went, and my cousins, Hannah and Asa, went already. It will be quite exciting =).

life is...boring/depressing/and absolutely not for me

2006-05-07T20:50:08Z

so this is the first time in the longest time ive written in here. I kinda miss it. I miss BBYO, i miss my old friends, i miss being good at school, i miss getting good grades...haha this is the new me. not happy, not funny, not bouncing off the walls anymore...im juss plain boring and depressed all the time. ive found myself doing my homework right when i come home from school and then crying myself to sleep. this is rediculous, im crying right now just thinking about what's been going on. There is so much I don't even have time to write it all down. I can't get a B in English 10 Honors...it is absolutely impossible because my teacher hates me. Yeah, I talk in class, but I pay attention. I need extra help and I'm kinda mad it took me until 4th quarter to realize i should stay after school. I'm going to stay after school with my friend, Jessie. That's another problem...my friends. I'm so self concious about what people think of me and if anyone likes me. Kristy is my best friend and Jessie is my other best friend...but I mean, I get really jealous when they hang out together and don't include me. Yeah, I know it's normal to be jealous and to want to spend a lot of time with ur best friends, but they deserve time alone with each other. I guess I don't really put myself in their shoes when I hang out with only one of them at a time. I just want to have a relationship with a friend where we are practically sisters...and inseperable and do everything together. I've just always wanted that kind of friendship because I've never had one like that. I mean, I've talked to Jessie and Kristy about it, but I don't wanna talk to them again because I'm annoying when I do. I know I get annoying with this ranting and raving shit but I can't fucking help it and that's why I have such a big problem with myself. I know I shouldn't get so worked up over stupid shit like this...but I mean...it's whatever. I really miss all of my old friends that I could talk to...I hate growing up and things changing...I mean people tell me all the time that high school is the best time of anyone's life...well, I'm still waiting for the good part...I just wanna get outta here, meet new people so I can start all over again and be a new person and just be free of all this bullshit that is so not worth my time. I had this Children's concert yesterday afternoon, and I had to stay in character for the whole hour and a half that I was on stage. I had to have a dorky smile on, greet the little kids and be nice and have a huge smile on my face. I was dying inside trying to hold back my tears so I could be happy and not uspet anyone. I wish I could truly be like that again, have a huge smile on my face all the time, be dorky with people and just have fun and think absolutely nothing of it. This is just another one of my fucking rant posts...but it feels absolutely amazing. Even though I'm not expressing how I feel by talking to someone, i'm still expressing myself through words...I think I'll keep everyone updated...I hope everyone on here kept me on their friend's list! I'm back and I'm trying really hard to change the way I am to the way I was.

crzymnky456 @ 2005-11-05T19:18:00

2005-11-06T00:32:20Z

hmmm...i think this is the longest I've gone w/o reading/updating on LJ...sorry guys...ive been super-dee-duper busy with a lot of stuff and juss didn't feel like updating or catching up on people because i had to catch up on myself...which I have finally achieved now, so here i am updating...hmm where shall i begin?

hahahaha HOMECOMING! went with Jen, Marisol, Kristy, and Jared...'twas mucho fun =). Me and Kristy are like this now *ties middle and pointer finger together* I love having a girlfriend I can talk to about anything and everything...plus, she has taught me some of her evil ways so I'm still learning, but I'm following in her footsteps...MWAHAHAHAHAHA.

soccer-great
school-great
friends-perfectly amazing ((i love you all =D))

and now back to Kristy...LOL so i went home with her yesterday and was spending the night. We had fun =)We saw Saw 2 which was really really good! go see it. After that, we went back to her house juss to chill for a while and then we snuck out of her house @ like 1 in the morning and chilled with her guy friends from West Pot. they are some pretty cool kids. I emded up hooking up with this one kid, Dan...he wasn't that great looking, but he gave ,e the biggest fucking hicky of my life! I've been so paranoid about my mom seeing it because my dad saw it when we were in Home Depot. After we left the bon-fire get togeter thing...me, Kristy, Brian, and Kelly ((Kelly is a guy)) went back to Kristy's house to chill. they stayed until like 430 and then they went home. Kristy and I stayed up until like 530 telling each other about our night. ROAR I love you with a burning passion, Kristin Yu Politte!

Blaaaaah....so right now I'm babysitting 3 girls, two 10-year-olds and one 5-year-old. they're angels =). I get to babysit them tomorrow night too...Tracey's making money again...YAY!!!! ((I GOT MY MEDICINE!)) hahahaha Kristy...okay I have to go read my book for English but I'm glad I updated again =) until next time, fuckers!

crzymnky456 @ 2005-10-17T20:57:00

2005-10-18T01:01:42Z

my life is a fucking roller coaster...i hate it

one minute, im all hunky-dory happy and YAY! and then the next minute im all shut-the-fuck-up-leave-me-alone type...ROAR ic ant take this shit nemore...

If there is one thing I hate more than hypocrits, its people who tell me they understand how I'm feeling when really...THEY HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE! I mean, the way i present it to you, it may sound like the same problems you have, but really, they're totally and completely different. I'm not mad or sad or nething, juss a bit ticked off and annoyed because you really don't understand what I'm feeling and you really don't understand what's going on. I don't need someone to tell me they know what it's like and it'll pass and blah blah blah and all that other shit. I udnerstand that, i KNOW FOR A FACT i will get over it sooner or later. But as of right now, I juss need someone one there to help me through it all, to support me, and tell me that everything will be alright, everything's gonna be okay...and most imporatntly that you let me know you are there with me every fucking step of the way, through thick and thin, through whatever, you. will. be. there.

pep rally was the best time of my life...i love my friends =) today is a happy day because my father is gone for 10 days on a business trip...SCORE!

im going to homecoming this year, hooray for me! LoL my mom and I are going back to the mall tomorrow when she gets home from work to try on more dresses-same style as the dress i tried on yesterday- but juss in different colors. I think I like the blue second best.

Zack and I are hanging out on Friday night...is it bad that im overly excited? =D! im so happy LoL.

thats it, good-bye!

BECAUSE I CAN, OKAY!?

2005-10-10T17:22:51Z

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So my mom finally gets out of bed at 1:00 in the afternoon ((which is early for her)) and tries to make small talk with me...she asks if I know that my soccer practice was cancelled today and I said "yes, i know, i got the e-mail too" and then she says "I think you have something to say to me..." and I said, "hmm...nope, nothing that I can think of, do you have something to say to me?" and she goes ((in a joking kinda voice to imitate me)) "nope, I don't think so!" and I say "alright, nice talkin to ya" and close my door. god WHAT A BITCH! but I'm feeling better about the whole situation because she's a freak and like Ugur told me, I shouldn't take offense to it...but w/e, I know we're both gonna be over it by the end of the day, but still...she knows how I am about my weight, im so fucking self-concious and then she has to go ahead and rub it in my god damn face! UGH i could slap her so hard right now! w/e...imma let it all go...ROAR!

crzymnky456 @ 2005-10-09T20:31:00

2005-10-10T00:49:23Z

i dont really feel like updating but i havent in a while so i might as well, right?

well, for one, my mom is the biggest bitch in the wolrd. she yelled at me because i told her i wasnt gonna wear stockings-pantyhose-w/e the fuck u wanna call them, with my homecoming dress...and she was like "the reason y u have to wear them is because ur fat and u need to suck in ur gut so it doesnt hang out and people won't call you a fat pig, because when u let ur gut hang out, u look like a fat pig." And on top of that, I got a ride home from one of my hebrew school teachers early instead of waiting for my mom to come and pick me up at 8 with my sister and instead of staying for the cooking elective, which btw u fat fuck ((referring to my mom)) is definitely NOT a part of the hebrew school curriculum this year. So you can go SHOVE UP UR FAT ASS U FAT UGLY PEICE OF SHIT WHORE!

okay...but neways, the point i was trying to make is that since i got a ride home early from one of my hebrew school teachers, i most likely wont be getting my homecoming dress...well actually nvm, i juss thought that i have money in my bank account so i can pay for my dress and get it altered too. So i may be in luck...but iono, we'll see how things go.

today was the bakesale for hurrican katrina victims. YAY FOR EMILY SHERMAN! her first event and it went absolutely swell =D. we made $400 and all of it is going to the red cross. I'm so pleased with the work Masada has done =D. Ya know, they're the only group of girls that actually make me feel really good. they're a part of me now, and i cant see myself letting go. But since I don't get to see most of them that often, it's hard because i love them all dearly and I can't see them as much as I want to.

Soccer is going well, we're starting to win again. yea...hmm okay next subject.

Chorus...S0O0O0O0O0 much fundraising, it's rediculous. we have the chorus picnic tomorrow, but not if it rains...i hope it doesnt rain, i need to get out of the house because my soccer practice is already cancelled for tomorrow. Oh well, we'll see if she sends out an e-mail.

I really really hate touching up on this subject, but I feel that I'm not as close with some people as I used to be. it's hard because they don't go to my school and all, but I just wish I could keep in touch and see them every chance I get. I've been meaning to hang out with them, but I feel so awkward making that one phone call. I mean, it's just a phone call, right? I keep telling myself, "ill get around to it later" and then later ends up being the next day when i have no free time with school, fundraising, powderpuff, soccer, homework, and then sleep. roar, w/e...I am definitely going to make up for all of this stupid depression shit...ive let it take over me for too long. roar w/e...

so me and ally were joking around in PE on friday singing the emo song and the only line we knew was "dear diary...mood: apathetic. my life is slowly spiraling downwards." its funny how a joke can turn into reality, hmm?

crzymnky456 @ 2005-10-05T14:04:00

2005-10-05T18:16:27Z

took this from rebecca because i can =)

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT? I have a scar on my right knee, i was in 2nd grade and i fell off of this bridge thing on my elementary school playground and the mulch cut my skin pretty bad.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? a titanic poster and a green poster thing that says "Student of the Week" from 6th grade...

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE? flip phone, black, the razor phone

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO? anything

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN? 2:26 p.m.

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW? to have my homework completed and over with and for it to be at least April so I can look forward to my spring chorus trip...i also want to make it into district choir...a date to homecoming would be nice...and of course for this one guy to like me, but im not sure how thats going right now...we shall see =)

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS AT TIMES? being a little kid, having so much time on my hands not knowing what to do with it...my second grade teacher, when life was easy...

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION? probably my old soccer cleates from like...forever ago..

9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL? when my mom makes matzah-brye ((however u spell it)) during Passover

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC? no

11. IF YOU DIED TOMORROW: i'd be somewhat happy i guess...

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY? i cant remember the last time i cried...

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME? Amber Romance from Victoria's Secret

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX? doesn't really matter to me...

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT? at a bar with a bunch of friends and my boyfriend, or at a special restaurant for dinner or something nice like that

16. DO YOU LIKE PORN? is it bad if I say yes?

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD? my sister

20. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE? spanish

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT EVER GIVEN TO YOU BY SOMEONE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX? my brother got me a sweater and a t-shirt for my late birthday present

22. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING? love is uncontrollable

23. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU? show them instead of juss telling them

24. TYPE A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED: 99

25. BLONDES, REDHEADS OR BRUNETTES? brunettes

26. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN? either tiffany's cell phone, stacy's house, marisol's house/cell, dad's work number, or home

27. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST? hypocrits

28. HAVE YOU EVER MADE A PRANK CALL? yes

29. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY? eating lunch after i came back from services

30. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY, WHAT WOULD IT BE? lypo-suction

31. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY? because i was bored and it was different than other surveys

32. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PIZZA? cheese only...sometimes mushrooms

33. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL? id drink neway?

34. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY? money so i can buy my car

s0o0o there's this guy, right...

2005-09-28T03:38:50Z

and i kinda like him a lot...here's where we left off...

long story short: i asked this guy to homecoming, he said he would if he didn't have plans to go to another homecoming on the same night. then the next day he tells me he can come with me and im happy. then the NEXT day, he tells me he cant come with me because if he went w. me he would feel bad if he didn't go w. me and he went w. the other girl, but then he would also feel bad if vice versa. he said he would think about it and I hate when guys say that. I mean...he could say no because he doesn't really know me that well, we do talk a lot online and we joke around and stuff, but we're not like GOOD GOOD friends. But he might also say yes because this would be a perfect opportunity for us to get to know each other better. i am definitely willing to wait ((although i hate when guys say that, as i said above in this entry)) and because it isnt until oct. 22nd so im not all that worried...but w/e.

deleted this other paragraph because i was crying too much and couldn't read wut i was typing after a while.

EDDDDDDDDDDIIIIIIIITTTTTTTT::: i deleted the paragraph that was supposed to be above BECAUSE of nip/tuck. the episode last night was outrageously scary and i cried...so there.

rant, rant, rant...its all i ever do anymore =/

2005-09-19T20:43:28Z

i dont even know where to start so i think im juss gonna type until my fingers fall off...or at least until i have to get ready for soccer practice...

ROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate hypocrits
i hate selfish people
i hate bitches
i hate fake people
i hate parents
i hate teachers
i hate people who talk out in class when not necessary
i hate english honors
i hate projects
i hate running
i hate being sore in the morning
a lot of things piss me off easily, but right now...
i hate you.
i cant stand the way you treat people sometimes. you act like ur "miss popularity" at school and then u come home and rant and rave about stupid people that u dont like when yet...u decided to be their best friend for the day. i hate the way u tell me something about someone behind their back one minute, and then the next minute, you're prancing around with them being dandy and shit. you piss me off so much right now that iont wanna talk to you. to me, as of right now, i see you as a self-centered brat and i cant stand that.

G-d, i miss my masada ladies too much...haha, im actually getting tears in my eyes juss knowing i cant be with you all until saturday =/. i wish i could see you guys more often. I've gotten so close with a lot of you girls and i seriously don't know how i survived w/o any of you. ily.

---EDIT--- just got home from soccer practice...took all my anger/frustration out on the field so im not as mad and imma talk to you about some stuff...cuz i hate doing this over and over again, its stupid...but yea...

pics from NYC

2005-09-17T20:58:22Z

i promised pics from NYC so here they are...enjoy! =D

my grandma in her apartment...she's so cool haha

HAHAHAHA MY MOM!

my sister is s0o0o0o freakin cool

damn, im so hot! hahahahahahaha...funniest picture of my life

HAIRSPRAY!!!!!!! awesome musical!

my mom and I before the show!

my sister, my mom, and I before the show...we're hot, heck yes!

my cousin, Hannah, and I

well thats about it...bye =)

An Update on Life

2005-09-16T19:08:17Z

Wow...I can't believe we've already made it through 2 weeks of school...

So the first couple of days of the first week were slow and boring and i didnt like them. but then later in the week, i got used to my classes-teachers and students-and I have a feeling this is going to be a fun year. I originally started out this year thinking things like, "ugh this is gonna be the worst year of my life...worse than last year...i hate the people in the school...i hate everything about this school...yadda yadda yadda." Well, I've gotten used to it, and now it's not so bad. I mean, I can't imagine how hard it is starting all over in a new school, but it might be fun. If I had the choice to either stay at LB or to start all over in a different school, I would probably stay at LB because at least I know the people and the teachers and classes and other things like that. But yea, enough about school, even though I like my classes and everything this year, im not totally obsessed.

Friends-well I have a lot of acquaintances...A LOT. But I have my Masada girls and I have my soccer team and a few close friends at LB. I don't need anyone else because everyone else SUCKS A LOT OF ASS...=).

ANYWAYS...so today was picture day I think I looked exceptionally well =D. I was hoping to get Amber as my background this year because I ALWAYS got green, but they didnt have it nemore, so i decided to do the same old shit, green. It will turn out nice, I'm sure, but I'm kinda bummed I didn't get Amber...oh well.

i cannot wait for this term ((BBYO)) I'm definitely excited. At kickoff, I saw S0O0O0O0O0O0O many new faces and a lot of familiar ones which was just as nice. "Make new friends, but keep the old." LoL girl scouts...how I hated being a brownie...but yea, I love all of my Masada Teddies and I wanna bang you all...thanks =).

soccer is going great...we had our first game last weekend but we tied 0-0, but we'll win this weekend.

yeah...nothing more to say so im outie...PEACE...hahaha

sorry?

2005-09-09T01:35:00Z

ROAR...definitely sorry for the lack of updates/comments...comments mostly...ive been incredibly tired/busy/not in the mood to do nething since school started...3 days ago. wutever...I have good classes. here's my schedule:

1st pd. Spanish 3 w. Anderson
2nd pd. PE w. Patton
3rd pd. Geometry w. Bell
4th pd. Chorus w. Cartwright
5th pd. English Honors w. Rockmann
6th pd. History w. Ianacone
7th pd. Chemistry w. Wallington

thepman17: ugh i hate this, i feel soo unp[repared for everything

^^ as do i, paul...as do i...

crzymnky456 @ 2005-09-05T20:50:00

2005-09-06T01:08:19Z

I feel like updating...so here are some pics of Becca...she took these at my house...we were bored...there will be more pics of me and my family in NY coming soon =)

rock on becca...rock on...

Becca's eye

my eye LoL

SHE'S GOING TO EAT YOU!!!!!!! ROAR!

Becca being the girl from the ring

mmmm yummy...LOL

yea thats it...bye!

crzymnky456 @ 2005-09-03T23:06:00

2005-09-04T03:09:18Z

in NJ right now...in a hotel lobby.

had the best time today...got to see relatives i havent seen in 234089672098670298756 years...yea.

I don't really feel like updating now.

Once my sister loads pics on to her computer and sends them to me, ill post them on here along with a real update. later dudes.

btw, im already NOT looking forward to going back to bumblefuck VA...roar.

crzymnky456 @ 2005-08-31T00:07:00

2005-08-31T04:20:46Z

(x)Pirates of the Caribbean
( )Boondock Saints
( )The Mexican
( )City of Lost Children
( )Fight Club
( )Starsky and Hutch
(x)Neverending Story
( )Blazing Saddles
( )Airplane
(x)The Princess Bride
( )Young Frankenstien
(x)AnchorMan
(x)Napoleon Dynamite
(x)Saw
(x)White noise
(x)White Oleander
(x)Anger Management
(x)50 First Dates
( )Jason X
(x)Scream
( )Scream 2
( )Scream 3
(x)Scary Movie
(x)Scary Movie 2
(x)Scary Movie 3
(x)American Pie
(x)American Pie 2
(x)American Wedding
(x)Harry Potter
(x)Harry Potter 2
(x)Harry Potter 3
( )Resident Evil I
( )Resident Evil 2
(x)The Wedding Singer
( )Little Black Book
(x)The Village
(x)Donnie Darko
( )Lilo & Stitch
(x)Finding Nemo
(x)Finding Neverland
(x)13 Ghosts
(x)Signs
(x)The Grinch
(x)Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(x)White Chicks
(x)The Butterfly Effect
(x)13 going on 30
(x)I Robot
( )Dodgeball
( )Universal Soldier
( )Lemony Snickets A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( )Along Came A Spider
( )Deep impact
( )KingPin
(x)Never Been Kissed
(x)Meet The Parents
(x)Meet the Fockers
(x)Eight Crazy Nights
(x)A Cinderella Story
(x)The Terminal
(x)The Lizzie McGuire Movie
(x)Passport to Paris
(x)Dumb & Dumber
( )Dumb & Dumberer
( )Final Destination
( )Final Destination 2
( )Halloween
(x)The Ring
( )The Ring 2
( )Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
(x)Practical Magic
(x)Chicago
(x)Ghost Ship
( )From Hell
( )Hellboy
(x)Secret Window
(x)Thirteen
(x)I Am Sam
( )The Whole Nine Yards
( )The Whole Ten Yards
(x)The Day After Tomorrow
(x)Child's Play
( )Bride of Chucky
(x)Ten Things I Hate About You
(x)Just Married
(x)Gothika
(x)Nightmare on Elm Street
( )Sixteen Candles
( )Bad Boys
( )Bad Boys 2
( )Joy Ride
( )Seven (SE7EN)
( )Oceans Eleven
( )Oceans Twelve
( )Identity
( )Lone Star
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crzymnky456 @ 2005-08-29T00:23:00

2005-08-29T04:29:39Z

school starts soon...im not too happy about this.

there are some people that are going to be there that I would be better off not seeing.

I have no idea whats gonna happen this year...last year definitely sucked a lot of ass.

maybe this year will be better? yeah...right...i HIGHLY doubt that.

I keep telling myself, "w/e, it's not your problem, forget about it, blah blah blah" and all that other bull shit.

I wanna move. move to a different state. just get the fuck out of this place. so I can start over and become a new person.

I'm sick of being here. I hate living in this fucked up place.

"Hi, I'm Tracey and I live in Bumblefuck Virginia...pleasure to meet you!"

right now, everyone can go suck a dick and shut the fuck up.

I don't know why I keep pressing enter in this entry...

there. blaaaaaaaaaaaaah mother fucker get me out. right now.

I hate living here. I hate the people that live here. I hate everything about living here.

Unfortunately, I can't do anything about it.

roar...w/e, im done, bye.

crzymnky456 @ 2005-08-20T19:43:00

2005-08-20T23:59:42Z

1. First grade teacher's name: Mrs. Austin
2. Last person you kissed: Matt Price
3. Last word you said: took
4. Last song you sang: I'm Not Okay-MCR
5. Last person you hugged: My sister
6. Last thing you laughed at: this guy thats tryna find the name of this one porn star
7. Last time you said 'I love you': yesterday when my mom called
8. What's in your CD player: Alanis Morissette
9. What socks are you wearing: none
10. What's under your bed: an 8 Ball
11. Current taste: grapes
13. Current hair style: messy and in a big ball on top of my head
14. Current clothes: t-shirt and shorts
15. Current annoyance: my dad
16. Current want: to get out of this god damn house or for Rebecca to come back from the beach or Sloane to come back from her cruise =(
17. Current desktop picture: bleeding rose
18. Current worry: scool starting
19. Current hate: my dad
20. Story behind your journal username: my screen name..
21. Current favorite article of clothing: sweat pants
22. Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: eyes, hands, teeth, and hair
23. Last CD that you bought: my sister bought me the killers CD for my bday
24. Favorite place to be: in NYC w. my cousin
25. Least favorite place: my house
26. Time you wake up in the morning: depends when i go to bed the night before
28. Believe in an afterlife: yes
29. Current favorite word/saying: "Go suck a dick", "Pookie", "Whip it out"
30. Favorite book: I have a lot..
34. One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: my uncle harvey
35. Favorite day: friday
36. Where do you want to go: to NYC
37. What is your career going to be like: successful
38. How many kids do you want: 1 or 2
39. What kind of car will you have: a silver mazda protege
40. Type a line you remember from any book: "You think you can be a bitch, but you can't...not like us."
41. A random lyric: Well if you wanted honesty that's all you had to say
42. Eye Color: hazel
43. Hair Color: brown
44. Righty or Lefty: righty
45. Zodiac Sign: cancer
46.Innie or Outtie: innie

DESCRIBE...
47. Your heritage: white
48. The shoes you wore today: soccer cleates
49. Your hair: curly and brown...
50. Your weakness: The Rocky Horror Picture Show
51. Your fears: the dark
52. One thing you'd like to achieve: s0o0o many things...

WHAT IS..
53. Your most overused phrase on aim: LoL
54. Your thoughts first waking up: What am I gonna do today?
55. The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: hands and eyes
56. Your bedtime: when i get tired
57. Your most missed memory: not sure..
59. McDonald's or Burger King: neither
60. Single or group dates: both.
61. Adidas or Nike: both are cool?
62. Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: iont drink tea
63. Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
64. Cappuccino or coffee: coffee

DO YOU...
65. Smoke: no
66. Cuss: yea
67. Sing: yes
68. Take a shower everyday: yes
69. Have a crush: no
70. Who is he: no one...
71. Think you've been in love: for the last god damn time, no
72. Want to go to college: indeed
73. Like high school: freshman year sucked cuz i was vulnerable and stupid, sophomore year will be better
74. Want to get married: sure why not...it won't kill me if i don't
75. Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: no, my fingers fly all over the keyboard
76. Think you're attractive: nope, not at all
77. Think you're a healthy: not when it comes to food
78. Get along with your parents: my mom
79. Play an instrument: the vocal cords

IN THE PAST 3 MONTHS, DID YOU OR HAVE YOU...
80. Drunk alcohol: yes
81. Smoke: no
82. Done a drug: no
83. Made Out: yes
84. Go on a date: no
85. Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no
86. Eaten sushi: no
87. Been dumped: no
88. Made homemade cookies: no
89. Been in love: no
90. Gone skinny dipping: no
91. Dyed your hair: no
92. Stolen anything: yes
HAVE YOU EVER..
93. Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: iono
94. Been caught: haha i got caught lying about where i was
95. Been called a prude: no
96. Gotten beaten up: no
97. Changed who you were to fit in: definitely not

GENERAL INFO...
98. My name is: Tracey
99. Height: 5'0
100. Favorite toe: i hate feet...
100. Favorite show: THE REAL WORLD! WOO!
101. The morning I: die will be the happiest morning of my life...
102. All you need is: love...da da da da da...
103. Love is: BLAAAH
104. If I could see one person right now: it would be either Becca, Stacy, BooBoo, Sloane, Ella, or Allie
105. What annoys you most: you

crzymnky456 @ 2005-08-15T20:03:00

2005-08-16T00:33:36Z

juss got back form soccer practice and i feel hella good =D haha. I'm gonna do it. I'm actually doing something about it =). haha I love my supporters...especially Stacy haha, she's the most important one. =D haha.

What time are you starting this? 8:04 p.m.

Name? Tracey

Nicknames? Trace Face, Pookie, Tracsters, T Money, Tracey Cat...yea

Date of birth? July 13, 1990

Sex? female

Height? 5'0

Eye color? hazel

Where were you born? Germany

Number of candles on your last birthday cake? 15

Pets? none

Hair color? brown

Piercings? ears

Town you live in? Burke

Favorite foods? Pollo con arroz ((or Stacy's mom's cooking =D haha))

Ever been to Africa? no

Been toilet papering? yes

Love someone so much it made you cry? no

Been in a car accident? no

Croutons or bacon bits? meh..neither

Favorite day of the week? friday

Favorite resturant? Shiros or Olive Garden

Favorite flower? Daisy

Favorite sport to watch? Baseball

Favorite drink? strawberry daquiri, strawberry margarita, apple margarita, orange soda, diet coke...yea

Favorite ice cream flavor? any kind of sorbet flavor...

Warner Bros. or Disney? Disney

Favorite fast food restuarant? Subway

Carpet color in your bedroom? Beige

How many times did you fail your driver's test? None yet =)

Whom did you get your last email from? I'm pretty sure it was the lovely Ella Rose =D

Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? well...

What do you do most often when you are bored? Annoy my mom at work

Most annoying thing to say to me? depends on my mood

Bedtime? when ever

Favorite TV show? The Real World, Nip/Tuck, Six Feet Under, and yea...

Last person you went out to dinner with?: Tiffany

Been out of the country? yes

Believe in magic? Do you believe in magic...in a young girl's heart...how the music can free her when ever it starts and its magic...if the music is groovy and makes u feel happy like an old time movie...yea =D hahaha

Ford or Chevy? Chevy...?

What are you listening to right now? Helen-MCR

Have you ever failed a grade? no

If you have, what grade did you fail?

Do you have a crush on someone? no

Do you have a bf/gf: no

If so, what is their name?

How long have you been together?

What are you wearing right now? blink182 shirt and shorts

Would you have sex before marriage? yes

Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers? no

Are you a virgin? yes

Do you smoke? no

Do you drink? occasionally

Are you ghetto? If I was ghetto, I would'nt be living in Burke...

Are you a player? hahaha...about that...

What are your favorite colors? green

What is your favorite animal? Animals are weird...but if I had to choose, a hyena

Do you have any birthmarks? yea

Have you ever gotten your ass kicked? no

Who do you talk to most on the phone? Becca, Tiffany, Stacy, or Melissa

Have you ever been slapped? yea

Do you get online a lot? yea

Are you shy or outgoing? outgoing =)

Do you shower? yes

Do you hate school? sometimes

Do you have a social life? yes

How easily do you trust people? I'm learning to not trust so easily...

Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing? yes...definitely

Would you ever sky dive? yea!

Do you like to dance? yes

Have you ever been out of state? yes

Do you like to travel? yes

Have you ever been expelled from school? no

Have you ever been suspended from school? no

Do you want to get out of your hometown? yes

Are you spoiled? no

Are you a brat? yes

Have you ever been dumped? yes

Do you like snapple? some flavors

Do you drink a lot of water? yes

What toothpaste do you use? crest

Do you have a cell phone? yes

Do you have a curfew? no

Who do you look up to? considering I'm 5 feet tall...hahaha

Are you a role model? I believe so =)

Have you ever been to Six Flags or Cedar Point? six flags

What name brand do you wear the most? I don't keep track

What kind of jewelry do you wear? heart necklave, studded, hoop, or martini earrings, sometimes anklets, and my livestrong bracelet

What do you want pierced? my nose

Do you like takin pictures? soemtimes

Do you like gettin your picture taken? yes

Do you have a tan? no

Do you get annoyed easily? not really

Have you ever started a rumor? yes

Do you have your own phone or phone line? my cell

Do you have your own pool? no

Do you prefer boxers or briefs? briefs

Do you have any siblings? older brother and older sister

Have you ever been played? not that I know of

Have you ever played anyone? yes

Do you get along with your parents? with my mom

How do you vent your anger? my LJ or my good friends

Have you ever ran away? it wasn't really running away...

Have you ever been fired from a job? not yet

Do you even have a job? yes

Do you daydream a lot? yes

Do you have a lot of ex's? yes

Do you run your mouth? haha yea

What do you want a tattoo of? maybe a heart with a black rose through it and like outlined in vines...yea on my shoulder or lower back

What do you have a tattoo of? nothing

Have you ever been bitched out? Not really, I do most of that LoL

Are you rude? I can be, but I'm a pretty easy-going person

What was the last compliment you recieved? you've got big boobs

Do you like getting dirty? only with my Masada Teddies, of course =D

Are you flexiable? not really

What is your heritage? polish, austrian, russian, and this other thing

What is your lucky number? 13

What does your hair look like right now? messy and in a big ball on the top of my head

Could you ever be a vegetarian? no

Describe your looks? if you click on earlier at the bottom of this page, the first entry will be pictures of me in Cali for my brother's graduation

If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color? Red

Would you ever date someone younger than you? no

Would you ever date someone older than you? I have

When was the last time you were drunk? hmmm...

How many rings until you answer the phone? if it's eddie, never...but neone else, about 2 or 3

Have you ever been skinny dipping? no

If yes, when was the last time?

When was the last time you went on a date? i forget

Do you look more like your mother or father? my mom

Do you cry a lot? when im depressed

Do you ever cry to get your way? not anymore

What phrase do you use most when on the phone? "Geh" and "pwahahaha" LOL BECCA

Are you the romantic type? definitely

Have you ever been chased by cops? no

What do you like most about your body? my eyes, hair and hands

What do you like least about your body? the rest of my body

When did you have your first crush? like 2nd grade

When was the last time you threw up? 8th grade...

Do you ever wear shirts do show your belly? no

What about cleavage? sometimes

Is your best friend a virgin? yes

Have you ever fucked someone up? no

Have you ever been fucked up? no

What theme does your room have? boring

What is your screen name on AIM? crzymnky456

How are you feeling right now? absolutely wonderful =)

When was the last time you were at a party? iont remember

Have you ever given a lapdance? yea

Have you ever recieved one? yea

Has there ever been a rumor spread about you? yea

What is one of your bad qualilties? im too clingy

What is one of your good qualilties? i can make people laugh even if I'm being totally stupid

Would you marry for money? no

Are you more of a mommys or daddys child? mommys

When was the last time you cried in school? like 2 minutes ago

Would you ever hook up with the same sex? no

What kind of music do you like? everything

Would you ever bungee jump? yea

What is your worst fear? getting caught up in an abusive relationship...or having someone really close to me die for doing stupid shit

Would you ever join the army? maybe

Do you like cows? no

If you were to die today? I might feel happy...

If you had one last word to say to someone before you die, what would it be? to my dad- I wish you were the one dying and not me

Do you like to party? always

Hearts or broken hearts? hearts

Moons or stars? stars

Coke or pepsi? pepsi

Favorite scent? Amber Romance or Vanilla Sugar

Favorite band? MCR

Would you ever dye your hair red? hell yea

How many languages can you speak? I can speak English and a bit of Spanish

What time are you finishing this? 8:33 p.m.

Get me out of here before it's too late...

2005-08-14T15:33:44Z

My parents suck a lot of ass...they really do.

Background details:
So, everyone was asleep at 6:30 in the morning on Tuesday ((this past tuesday)). I wake up to the sound of people screaming, not surprised it was my parents. I had no idea what they were fighting over. All they were doing was yelling at the top of their lungs to each other, my dad mostly. He was screaming, "RUTH GET OUT OF THE FUCKING BED! STOP BEING LAZY AND GET OUT OF THE FUCKING BED! YOUR ALARM WENT OFF, YOU NEED TO GET OUT OF BED!" I say to myself, "Oh, so NOW he cares when she's out of bed? He probably woke up late ((he had to take my sister to West Springfield so she could take her Geometry SOL, which she passed =D)) and couldn't get into the shower until my mom did because he knew that if he got in before her, she would be late to work and we wouldn't hear the end of it when she got home tonight." Sure enough, I was right. My dad kept screaming and telling my mom to get out of bed, until he finally took the covers and threw them off the bed, then he gradded my mom by the arms to lift her up to get her out of bed. Meanwhile, my mom is calling him a mother fucking lunatic, screaming and struggling to get away from him, ugh it was awful. My sister and I weren't worried, though, because they fight like this all the time. But once my mom came into the hallway to get her towel and washcloth, she started talking to Deborah and I saying, "Girls, girls wake up. He's in one of his moods again. You need to stay out of his way today. If he asks you to do something, you do it without any arg--"

Then I said, "MOM, STOP IT! NO ONE CARES ABOUT HIM ANYMORE! JUST STOP!" I was mad because I could've slept for at least 20 more minutes before Tiffany was coming over ((she was gonna help me out at the synagogue)).

Later...when I was downstairs on the couch in the living room waiting for Tiffany to come, my dad had threatened to turn the water off on my mom when she was in the shower because he's just an asshole like that. He came downstairs, looked at me fore a second then said:
((D))"What the fuck are you doing up, you little shit? What time do you have to be up?"
((T))"I have to be up by 10:15 at the latest, but I'm up now because you're a fucking animal."
((D))"You look like you're waiting for someone, why are you down here?"
((T))"I'm waiting for Tiffany to come because she's coming to the synagogue with me today."
((D))"SHE'S COMING RIGHT NOW?!??!"
((T))"Yes."
((D))"FUCKIN' GREAT, YOU LITTLE FAT FUCK! YOU'RE A STUPID FAT FUCK AND YOU DON'T FUCKING THINK THINGS THROUGH!!! WHY THE FUCK DO YOU LET YOUR FRIENDS COME OVER AT FUCKING 7 IN THE MORNING, YOU LITTLE BITCH?!?!?"
((T))--semi laughing-- "I told you 2 days ago and yesterday that she was coming over. This just proves my point that you don't listen to a god damn thing anyone says in this house."
((D)) --walking back upstairs-- "Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck.."

Tiffany finally came, I took a shower, called my boos to come and pick us up ASAP, and we were gone until 5. My sister's plane left at 5:30, so she had already left to go to the airport.

My parents haven't been talking since their little episode, so this morning was more fighting. They were screaming and yelling at 5:30 in the morning. My mom was screaming and sounded like she was struggling to get out of his grip or some shit like that, and I was sitting in my bed, not moving...waiting...listening. Until finally, my dad said "I'm sleeping downstairs cuz I can't stand it when pigs snore. You're a mother fucking fat fuck and you snore like a fucking pig." As he walked downstairs, my mom called after him, "DIE YOU MOTHER FUCKING BASTARD! YOU DON'T DESERVE TO LIVE! I HOPE YOU HAVE A FUCKING STROKE AND DIE YOU FUCKER!"

All the days in between those two and the next few coming up are gonna be a case of my mom asking me where he is and what he's doing, my dad staying out of sight from everyone else, and that's about it.

On a happier note, Deborah comes home on Wednesday, so I think I'll go to the airport with my dad to pick her up because I miss her. We've been texting each other and talking occasionally on the phone and she's been telling me everything that she has been doing with our Uncle Izzy and our Aunt Rose.

Soccer season starts tomorrow. I'm excited because it will help me with my diet thing ((if you can even call it that =/)) and get me out of the house so I don't have to be in the middle of my parents fighting.

WARPED TOUR 2005...AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!

2005-08-10T23:40:46Z

OMG JUSS GOT BACK FROM WARPED TOUR..MOST AMAZING TIME OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!

okay...so Becca came over w. the wrong shoes at like 920 this morning...and then Jayme and Erinn came to pick us up and we had to drive back to Becca's house really fast so she could get her comfy shoes =D.

okay, boring drive there...bunch of traffic...yadda yadda yadda...and...WE'RE THERE!

So, we ended up having to wait in this humngo line so Jayme and Erinn could get their tickets because they didn't really buy them before...LoL. That was kinda fun cuz a bunch of people came up to us with their CD's tryna get us to buy it and stuff. Some were really good, others were juss shit. Once we got to the beginning of the line, we saw Kerry, Alex, and Becca! We said hey, gave them hugs, then we were inside!!!

When we got in, I tried to look for Tammy while Jayme tried to look for Chris and everyone else he was hanging out with. We went to go see Chris and everyone first, and then we went to go see Tammy and Rebecca. Jayme and Erinn went back to go hang out with Chris and his fellow friends ((LoL)) while me, Rebecca, Tammy, and Becca hung out. We saw Ugur and Chris Shores, and then I saw Zach...shit, I forgot his last name. But I've known him forever, and he was with his really hot friend, Mark. Then Tammy, Becca, Rebecca and I all went to meet up with Jayme and Erinn at the concession stand to go get stuff to eat. more yadda yadda yadda...walking around...went with Rebecca to go get pizza and I caught up with her, so I'm glad =D <3.

OKAY! so, Rebecca and I find Tammy and Becca again, and we juss walked around and got good places for MCR to come on. OMG...so we thought we were right outside of the Mosh Pit...when really, we were in the middle. Once everyone heard the first note of the guitar, EVERYONE WENT FORWARD! Tammy, Becca and I were all like "OMG HAHAHAHAHAH! YEAAAH HAHAHAH!" and it was s0o0o0o much fun! then we finally got out of there and went to go get something to drink.

Then we walked around for a bit, and @ 520 we listened to the first 2 songs that Monty played. They're a really good band...although that was the first time I heard them. But I liked it.

Some of the people I saw: Tammy and Rebecca ((obviously =D)) Chris and some of his friends, Ugur, Chris Shores, Rebecca S., Kerry, Alex, Izzy, Candice, Jesse Baskin ((he lookd s0o0o0o good with his shirt off haha)), Ashley and Danielle Danner, Gaby and Cassie, Sara and her friend Jessica...and I think thats about it. But I'm sure I'm probably forgetting some people but, that's okay.

I will try to get some pictures that Tammy took and some that other people took.

crzymnky456 @ 2005-08-05T15:04:00

2005-08-05T19:17:43Z

blaaah...there's a new guy like every week...LOL that sounded bad, but its true =/...I hate it

so this new guy Matt came over and we..."hung out"...if you can even call it that...

I'm happy and all cuz he's such a great guy...but I'm not sure what I'm feeling or more importantly, what he's feeling about the whole situation...I wish he was feeling the same way as me, but I can never be too sure...and now iono what's going on with us =/...I shouldn't say "us" because there is no "us" there's a me and him...or him and i...whichever one it is, thats what we are.

I'm so confused right now because I like him and all, but I'm looking for a boyfriend...it doesn't have to be long-term-commitment-"i-love-you-my-honey-bunches-of-oats"-call-me-every-second relationship, just a boyfriend who I know will be there to hold me when I need to be held, but also pleasure me when I need to be pleasured...oh yes that's hot. That's why I love being a Masada Teddy =D MWAHAHAHA...alright enough about boys.

I'm tired of being self conscious about my body all the time, especially when it comes to guys, so I'm gonna be doing weight watchers with my mom online...I'm gonna lose a lot of weight, be the weight that I'm comfortable with, and I'll finally be happy for once in my life...I can't wait to start...it's weird cuz im excited...haha yea right...

I'M GOING TO WARPED TOUR WITH JAYME, BECCA, ERINN, AND CARALYN...ILL SEE UGUR THERE AND SARA AND MAYBE OTHER PEOPLE...I'M SO FREAKIN EXCITED LIKE WHOA! YOU HAVE NO IDEA...yeah =)

Despite the little boy situation, I'm actually satisfied with my life right now...satisfied isn't exactly "happy", but it's close enough for me =).

survey time woowoo!

2005-08-04T05:03:02Z

[ ] I am bisexual or homosexual
[x] I've run away from home
[ ] I listen to political music
[ ] I collect comic books
[x] I open up to others easily
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[ ] I watch the news
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs
[ ] I own an Ipod or mp3 player
[x] I own something from Hot Topic
[x] I love Disney movies
[x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes
[x] I don't kill bugs (I make other people do it for me)
[x] I curse regularly
[x] I paid for that cell phone ringtone
[ ] I have x’s in my screen name
[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation
[ ] I love Spam
[x] I bake well
[x] I would wear pajamas to school
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie
[x] I have a job
[ ] I love Martha Stewart
[x] I am in hate with love
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS
[x] I am self conscious
[x] I like to laugh
[ ] I smoke a pack a day
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick
[x] I can't swallow pills
[x] I have many scars
[x] I've been out of this country
[x] I believe in ghosts
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room
[x] I am really ticklish
[ ] I see/have seen a therapist
[x] I love chocolate
[x] I bite my nails
[x] I play computer games/video games when I’m bored
[ ] Gotten lost in your city
[x] Saw a shooting star
[x] Been to any other countries
[ ] I had a serious Surgery
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[ ] Have kissed a stranger
[x] Hugged a stranger
[ ] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested (but never charged)
[x] Laughed and had milk/soda come out of your nose
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] Made out in an elevator
[x] Swore at your parents
[ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts
[ ] Been skydiving
[ ] Been bungee jumping
[ ] Broken a bone
[x] Played spin the bottle
[ ] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten someone
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[ ] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[x] Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired
[x] have/had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
[ ] Stole something from your job
[x] Gone on a blind date
[x] Lied to a friend
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher/coach
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans
[x] Been to Europe
[ ] Slept with a co-worker
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Saw someone dying
[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[ ] Been to Canada
[x] Been on a plane
[x] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] Thrown up from drinking
[x] Eaten Sushi
[ ] Cut yourself
[ ] Been snowboarding
[ ] Been skiing
[ ] Been ice skating
[ ] made yourself throw-up
[ ] Met someone in person from the internet
[ ] Been to a motocross show
[x] Gone/Going to college
[ ] Done hard drugs
[ ] Taken painkillers
[x] Have been to California
[x] Made out with the opposite sex
[ ] Made out with someone of the same sex
[ ] Got a tattoo
[ ] Got more than one tattoo in a day
[ ] Gave myself a tattoo
[ ] Pierced my own ears
[ ] Pierced my own navel/tongue/other stuff
[x] Were so bored you took this survey

Happy Birthday Rebecca =)

2005-08-03T02:29:25Z

So yesterday was a boring day. I finished making Rebecca's HUMUNGOUS card and putting her present together. I got her a bottle of bubble bath and a small tube of lotion ((mango mandarine yummy LoL)). I was talking to her mom online and asked if I could come over to hide her present, so I did. I ended up just hanging it up on her laundry room door with a banner that said "Happy Birthday". She came home and screamed, so I'm glad she liked it:-D. Before she came home though, I hung out with her mom all day =D. 'Twas mucho fun haha. I ended up sleeping over, then getting up at 9 in the morning to go home, take a shower, and get ready for work. I stayed there until about 3, then my boss drove me home so I could get ready for Becca's birthday dinner. I got to Becca's house, finished straightening my hair, then we picked up Paul to go to Coastal Flats ((i think thats how u spell it)) Then we went back to Becca's house to open her presents. Blah I'm bored...until next time, yo.

like avril lavigne said..."he was a boy...she was a girl...can I make it anymore obvious?"

2005-07-19T01:49:01Z

blaaah...i met a guy...named Jon...and I had to be a stupid little girl with a crush and fuck things up...like always...

but he isn't on my mind anymore

I'm gonna forget about boys for a while

and maybe juss turn lesbian for the time being...

cuz guys suck a lot of ass and i hate them all and want them to die like now...

hmm...i wonder when i can see him again? next weekend, ya think?